I’m awake. It’s late. I should be asleep. But I’m not. My mind is flooded. Some big things. Some things, not as big.
On the not as big list; why is there dirt under my toe nail? I wore shoes today. I didn’t realize I could drink so much Dr. Pepper. Do I have clean underwear for tomorrow? Are my Chiefs really blowing out the Chargers? Did he just return that punt 94 yards for a touchdown?
On the big list; why do I feel alone? Did I really just think that? Am I really that messed up? God wants to use me? Really? How can I be a better father? After 10 years, why am I not a better husband? What am I missing? What is the deal with life? What is left to say? God, I’m not sure where to go from here.
It is at a moment like this when our hearts cry out. They cry out whether we want them to or not. We have questions. We hurt. We crumble. Our knees become our resting place because when we stand there is too much pressure. So, we cry out. Romans 8:26 teaches that the Spirit of God cries out to God the Father for us when we don’t even know what to say.
David cried out to God on multiple occasions. Psalm 88:1, 2 – David cries out to God, “Oh Lord, God of my salvation, I cry out to you by day and come to you at night.” You should go read the entire chapter of Psalm 139. Then reread it. It’s fascinating. David closes this amazing chapter by saying this in verse 23, “Search me oh God and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts.” Our hearts are designed to cry out to God. Our questions lead us to cry out. God knows us better than we know ourselves. Search me oh God and try me. Get rid of my anxiety.
I’m awake. It’s late. I think I need to spend some time crying out to God. I think my knees should get used to this.
What do you need to cry out to God about?
Are you feeling anxious about anything?
Have you given that anxiety to God and allowed Him to search every inch of your heart?
May you cry out to God tonight. And may God bring you clarity and your heart peace.